Cold carousel spinning in a soft lofi inspired abstract haze

[Verse 1] Quiet rebellion Stacked dishes in my brain Every bright idea Taped down with duct and shame I color in the margins Till the paper bends Smile like I'm compliant Teeth on the fence [Chorus] If I erupt If I rebel Will I be free or just unwell? Pressure in waves I ride I drown Control at what cost now? Heartbeat in code that you can’t tell From a cold carousel Spinning in place I bite my yell Will I be free or just unwell? [Verse 2] You call it discipline I call it disappearing Talk to my reflection Like it's overhearing I practice every answer Till the truth feels wrong Tongue a loaded question Waiting too long [Chorus] If I erupt If I rebel Will I be free or just unwell? Pressure in waves I ride I drown Control at what cost now? Heartbeat in code that you can’t tell From a cold carousel Spinning in place I bite my yell Will I be free or just unwell? [Bridge] Maybe the break is the healing Maybe the crack is the spell Maybe the fallout I’m fearing Is just me leaving the cell If I burn down this behavior Who am I then Who am I then? [Final Chorus] So I erupt And I rebel No, I won’t ask if it is well Pressure in waves I ride I drown I let it take me now Heartbeat in code I know too well Cold carousel Spinning in place I ride it still I'll be anything - I just feel analyze and make cover art, Cold Carousel in lofi-chill vibe.